SADTOKBER

HAI AND ASSALAMUALAIKUM,

October is one of the toughest months through this whole year. I can't deny that I cry a lot during this month, fall much time, heartbreak for thousand times, the messy of study, the unstable health and what not.



However, throughout this test, I learn a lot. There is so much thing that I can't forget.



In our life, you can't assume that the sun and rainbow will stick there all the time. Sometimes, we need a storm and rain that will teach us how to search the light after the darkness.



I did feel give up in my life especially in term of my health. Sometimes I wonder, how long more do I have? Will I feel the happiness? Will I feel being loved by the people? I keep asking the questions but I did not find the answer.



You know what, I make mistake. I keep asking but I did not act. I want to be happy but I did not work for it. I want to be as perfect as I can and make people satisfied with me but I did not make any effort to make it become reality. Thanks to Jazlie because finally, I found the answer.

"I NEED TO ACT FOR MY DREAM, NOT ONLY KEEP ASKING"



October changed me a lot.



I faced the test with the relationship between me and my debate team. I did reach the point where I feel I m so give up with it because I feel I can't do anything. Here I kept blaming myself. But the question is if I kept blaming myself, will the problem solve? Will we back to normal again? Will we? I still remember how bad I cry for almost a week. Regretting and wishing to turn back time. Sadly, it will not happen. Instead of thinking the past, I should work for the future to fix it isn't? So I believe that the sun still there and I try my best to fix everything that I can. Alhamdulillah, things get better and I believe that time will heal everything. For all the support that I get, thank you.



Heartbreak? Haha, should I call it heartbreak? Perhaps yay and perhaps nay. I always think that I m still small enough for this but mommy said no I m not. I will turn 20 next year and I believe that this is the learning process in my life. The situation that will make me become stronger and more mature in a relationship. Maybe, become more professional too. Though this is not the first time I feel much better.



Unstable health. This really drives me crazy. I can't even cry when I know my health report drop drastically and unstable like a roller coaster. I don't count how many times I sit in the critical ward or how much pail of blood that I lose. Thanks to  Allah cause He still gives me a chance till now. Alhamdulillah, maybe because things get better so my health gets better too.

Semester 5 is one of the hardest semester.  The subject is really tough but I m enjoying my self. It just me who did not know how to manage my time well. My favorite subject this semester is communication law. To me it is fun. hoping that I can pass this semester with flying colours.



So what I can conclude is, don't be sad for a long time. No matter how hard your life is, keep going. Don't ever let your tiara fall. I know that it is so hard but believe me, Allah will not put you in a situation where you can't face. If you have a problem, don't run. Settled it down because there must a solution in every problem that you got. In any relationship, communication is the key. You need to always remember that every test that you faced will help you grow well and make you stronger in the future.



So I leave here one of the quotes that inspire me a lot,

Love,

Min Min

My Onion Fam

Hai and Assalamualaikum..
Its been a long time I did not write here. Told ya, be a college student is superb busy and hectic but I am enjoying myself there :)

So I m gonna share about my onion fam which has a special place in my heart. :)

To be honest, I m not the one who are easily closed with people, easily to share everything with since I have a bad trust issue  but guess what, finally I met the people who loved me, accept me for who I am and never make me feel regret, and they are my Onion garls !!!

Basically my onion is from yoc fam but it is garlsz only (GIRLS POWER!!!)

They are Una, Hana auntie Onion, Mermaid , Adila, Madam Fil our ibu onion and Miss Fatin our Kakak onion. They mean so much to me. Especially when I am different from the other people, but they still support me till now. I did not expect that I can be fine as this. Without their help, I might not be here now. Even  doctor could not believe I still can survive till now and when they asked why I still doing fine?

Because I have them. One of the reason why I still keep fighting until now is because of them :)

They are very kind and the most loving person that I met. They listen to all my story, about all those gossips, all my rungutan,my tangisan , they are with me. Listen to it and keep blowing me all those spirit.

Thank you sayang sayang bawang semua :) 

Una, the teacher. Very loving person where somehow I feel touch :") Too kind until I m skek ,what if someday I can't hug her as always I do? The one who keep my secret. From the tiny one until the biggest one. Somehow she is soo garang until I m skek but ya Una,min love you :) Terima kasih untuk semuanya. Terima kasih sebab bagi harapan untuk min. Walaupun una tak sama dengan kak qusha but trust me, you got my heart.

Hana our auntie onion which always make me proud! She is superb talented and ya, has a high passion in debat. We spend a lot of time by went to HEP together to settle everything. I feel lucky to have you. My life become more wonderful.

Mermaid, the one that cheer me up. I did not expect that we gonna have this strong relationship until now. She is also a good listener. Funny too for sure, Tak pernah lah murung kalau ada mermaid.  Mermaid, you know how much I love you :(

Adila. my pakar chenta who experiences a lot with all those kisah chenta . The first girl in debate that I closed . Selalu ajak merempit tak pakai helmet. I m proud with you garl! you improve a lot !!! I love you okay !

Madam our ibu onion. Maybe madam tak baca entry saya but madam, Thank you! Madam dah macam my other wing. Madam sangat rock and madam really make me feel lucky knowing hows great my madam. Told ya! she is THE BEST LECT EVA!!! Madam dah banyak sangat sacrifices for us tapi saya tak mampu nak balas, I only can pray that Allah will always bless your family and grant a Jannah for madam :) Madam, saya sayang madam :)


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Our kakak onion miss fatin. Miss dah macam kakak kami dah. Banyak nasihat miss yang masih segar di ingatan saya, Even if miss tak tahu my real condition, but then miss selalu care pasal saya which make me feel comfortable :) Saya sayang miss :)

To my onion, THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING. This entry is nothing compared with everything that you guys did. Banyak sangat. I wish I can see each single of you kawin and happy ever after. I cant do much either than pray for you guys :)


Sampai sini je kot entry kali ini,
Till we meet again!
Much Love, baby onion